I remember the first time someone ever called me fat. I was 13-years old and I remember exactly how it made me feel. I remember feeling like I wanted to crumble up into a ball and disappear. I remember feeling like there was no worse thing to be in the world. Fat was the worst. For the next 10 years, I had a very dysfunctional relationship to my body and food.
I was always on a diet or restricting. I thought about food constantly. I thought about the way my body looked constantly and what other people were thinking about it. I would spend days, weeks, or months barely eating and exercising as much as I could. I felt so restricted and so deprived. Hungry. Then when I couldn’t take it anymore, I would binge as much food as I could. I would eat until I felt numb and sick. Then I would feel so guilty, so ashamed, and so anxious. I was trapped in this never ending revolving door of dieting. I developed a binge eating disorder. I felt like I would never be confident or happy until I reached that ideal body.
There came a time when I couldn’t do it anymore and knew that I had to change. I wanted to live my life NOW and stop waiting for that “perfect” body to live. I made a career change and decided to purse nutrition and coaching. I wanted to help people like myself. During this time, I really worked on changing the relationship I had to myself. I had to let go of dieting completely. I had to do a lot of work mentally.
Today, I am a Registered Nutritionist and Health Coach. I am not perfect, but I have come a long way. I focus now on mindful eating and body image. I help women get away from diets and focus on creating a healthy relationship to the body and food. No guilt, no shame, and no restriction. From a place of love, my clients are able to make more empowered choices for their health and feel amazing about their bodies and lives!
I work with clients one on one at Abaton Integrative Medicine in Oakville, ON, and virtually, via voice or video call.
In my spare time, I enjoy spending time with my loved ones, doing yoga, getting outside for a long walk, trying new restaurants, watching Netflix, or travelling to a new place.